Dear God, I do not understand the things that you make me go through.I have so many questions that I do not even know where to begin finding the answers for. I do not get why you allow me to break the way I am breaking.Sometimes I question your love.I question your existence.If you are real and if you love me the way the book claims,then why do I break so badly?So often?Why?
Sometimes I question myself.Have I done things so horrible that makes me deserving of these wounds? Am I not worth any to you? Do I even matter?
Dear God,do you hear me when I cry? Do you see me bleed while I try to get up daily? Do you feel my anguish? Do you even care?
I am tired.My heart,my body and my spirit are tired. I feel hallow.I feel empty. People tell me that only you the fill this void so I seek you out. Why don’t I feel you anymore? Why do you let me walk alone?Or even if you don’t, why do you allow me to feel this lonely? Are you even there?
As I lay today broken and wounded I take comfort knowing that your love for me is enough to bring healing. I try to remind myself that you heal.Dear God when?When will you heal me?